Monday, January 23, 2012
@ 2:52 AM
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Tonight i felt like i was dreaming. After coming back from meeting my mates, i rested in my room, painted my nails.. and i looked at my old phone to my surprise.... i really felt i was dreaming.. A text msg frm someone ive been longing for.. Reminisce msg-es from him, telling me how he wished he cld turn back time.. arrghh.. and i continually told him that was all in the past.. no words cld explain the shit im feeling right now.. 9 yearss... we have grown and how things have changed....
truth is you never left my heart, how cld you when you were the only guy who managed to get hold onto my heart the moment i set my eyes on you.
Maybe its true, we were not fated.
But i always appreciate knowing you once in my life =)
truth is you never left my heart, how cld you when you were the only guy who managed to get hold onto my heart the moment i set my eyes on you.
Maybe its true, we were not fated.
But i always appreciate knowing you once in my life =)
Monday, December 26, 2011
@ 2:00 AM
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Life's been a roller coaster ride for me this year.
2011 has made a big impact on my life and certainly changed the way i used to be.
I never thought i wld be blogging again, but since 2011 is ending, let me just pen down what happened....
I went thru quite a lot of hurdles this year and thank you Allah, i managed to pull through. I never thought i wld be this strong tho..
I wld say i lost something but i sure gained more than what i lost. For those who know, yes i finally break free... My relationship of 5 years 4mths that was turning into another mth older ended this year... Something i never expected. Shit happened and i dont feel like jotting it down here cos i dont think i need my blog to remind me what happened for it's something ill always rmbr all my life :)
What happened certainly mould me to be a better person and i gained back friends i lost along the way. Allah certainly knows better and HE showed n guided my path throughout this painful process. You know they say 'when your heart turns numb, you just wont feel anything anymore' i used to find tht bull cos whenever we tried to end our rship, i always find myself running back to him, but not this time. My heart totally shut him out and i didnt shed any tear when it happened. My heart really turned numb. It was pretty hard in the first place, adapting to the situation where he is not by my side. But i continued praying n believing this is all fated. Slowly, he was taken out from my heart & mind.. I spent more time with my family and friends. And i have my family to thank for.. Keeping me in shape and shower me with all the love they cn give. Friends like nadiah, who never never fail to b by my side when shit happens. And my colleagues for always giving me bolster hugs when im in need of one and always making my life interesting.. My dearest mudak,my manager who never fail to have a heart to heart talk to me during work.. Finding out how my life is and giving me motivations n advices. My bestfriends like iffa, nurul and my close guyfrens who always respect my decisions and believe in my capability. Thank you so much people.. W/out all of you, i might still be the old me.. Fragile, broken, sensitive, no confidence..
What made my year when my mum told me i have grown alot, in the sense of thinking wise. And that really made me smile. I finally learnt to think using my brain instead of my heart.. I thank God for the life i have right now. A loving family, caring friends, good job, great colleagues... Other half? i leave that to Allah. I wonder too at times whose rusuk do i belong to.. Whatever my future gonna be, ill never forget this path i took. I wont regret leaving this cos i have given my best and it still failed, then Allah definitely knows better than me :) Mumma, mudak and all my friends been asking me who's my date now.. I can only smile cos i seriously have no answer to it. I told him before "if ever we break up, im gonna make sure the next person i date wld be my future husband and i want to love him more than how much i loved you" yeah i said tht few weeks before we broke up.. Mcm tau2 kn? frankly, i didnt know we were gonna break up, but well, alamat2 agaknye.LOL!
Okay my eyes are making its way to lala land.
For now, im loving my life and let's hope 2012 wld be a good year for all of us.
Amin :)
2011 has made a big impact on my life and certainly changed the way i used to be.
I never thought i wld be blogging again, but since 2011 is ending, let me just pen down what happened....
I went thru quite a lot of hurdles this year and thank you Allah, i managed to pull through. I never thought i wld be this strong tho..
I wld say i lost something but i sure gained more than what i lost. For those who know, yes i finally break free... My relationship of 5 years 4mths that was turning into another mth older ended this year... Something i never expected. Shit happened and i dont feel like jotting it down here cos i dont think i need my blog to remind me what happened for it's something ill always rmbr all my life :)
What happened certainly mould me to be a better person and i gained back friends i lost along the way. Allah certainly knows better and HE showed n guided my path throughout this painful process. You know they say 'when your heart turns numb, you just wont feel anything anymore' i used to find tht bull cos whenever we tried to end our rship, i always find myself running back to him, but not this time. My heart totally shut him out and i didnt shed any tear when it happened. My heart really turned numb. It was pretty hard in the first place, adapting to the situation where he is not by my side. But i continued praying n believing this is all fated. Slowly, he was taken out from my heart & mind.. I spent more time with my family and friends. And i have my family to thank for.. Keeping me in shape and shower me with all the love they cn give. Friends like nadiah, who never never fail to b by my side when shit happens. And my colleagues for always giving me bolster hugs when im in need of one and always making my life interesting.. My dearest mudak,my manager who never fail to have a heart to heart talk to me during work.. Finding out how my life is and giving me motivations n advices. My bestfriends like iffa, nurul and my close guyfrens who always respect my decisions and believe in my capability. Thank you so much people.. W/out all of you, i might still be the old me.. Fragile, broken, sensitive, no confidence..
What made my year when my mum told me i have grown alot, in the sense of thinking wise. And that really made me smile. I finally learnt to think using my brain instead of my heart.. I thank God for the life i have right now. A loving family, caring friends, good job, great colleagues... Other half? i leave that to Allah. I wonder too at times whose rusuk do i belong to.. Whatever my future gonna be, ill never forget this path i took. I wont regret leaving this cos i have given my best and it still failed, then Allah definitely knows better than me :) Mumma, mudak and all my friends been asking me who's my date now.. I can only smile cos i seriously have no answer to it. I told him before "if ever we break up, im gonna make sure the next person i date wld be my future husband and i want to love him more than how much i loved you" yeah i said tht few weeks before we broke up.. Mcm tau2 kn? frankly, i didnt know we were gonna break up, but well, alamat2 agaknye.LOL!
Okay my eyes are making its way to lala land.
For now, im loving my life and let's hope 2012 wld be a good year for all of us.
Amin :)
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