Dear Diaryy,

2012-01-23T02:52:00.000-08:00

Tonight i felt like i was dreaming. After coming back from meeting my mates, i rested in my room, painted my nails.. and i looked at my old phone to my surprise.... i really felt i was dreaming.. A text msg frm someone ive been longing for.. Reminisce msg-es from him, telling me how he wished he cld turn back time.. arrghh.. and i continually told him that was all in the past.. no words cld explain the shit im feeling right now.. 9 yearss... we have grown and how things have changed....

truth is you never left my heart, how cld you when you were the only guy who managed to get hold onto my heart the moment i set my eyes on you.

Maybe its true, we were not fated.

But i always appreciate knowing you once in my life =)

2011-12-26T02:00:00.000-08:00

Life's been a roller coaster ride for me this year.

2011 has made a big impact on my life and certainly changed the way i used to be.
I never thought i wld be blogging again, but since 2011 is ending, let me just pen down what happened....

I went thru quite a lot of hurdles this year and thank you Allah, i managed to pull through. I never thought i wld be this strong tho..

I wld say i lost something but i sure gained more than what i lost. For those who know, yes i finally break free... My relationship of 5 years 4mths that was turning into another mth older ended this year... Something i never expected. Shit happened and i dont feel like jotting it down here cos i dont think i need my blog to remind me what happened for it's something ill always rmbr all my life :)

What happened certainly mould me to be a better person and i gained back friends i lost along the way. Allah certainly knows better and HE showed n guided my path throughout this painful process. You know they say 'when your heart turns numb, you just wont feel anything anymore' i used to find tht bull cos whenever we tried to end our rship, i always find myself running back to him, but not this time. My heart totally shut him out and i didnt shed any tear when it happened. My heart really turned numb. It was pretty hard in the first place, adapting to the situation where he is not by my side. But i continued praying n believing this is all fated. Slowly, he was taken out from my heart & mind.. I spent more time with my family and friends. And i have my family to thank for.. Keeping me in shape and shower me with all the love they cn give. Friends like nadiah, who never never fail to b by my side when shit happens. And my colleagues for always giving me bolster hugs when im in need of one and always making my life interesting.. My dearest mudak,my manager who never fail to have a heart to heart talk to me during work.. Finding out how my life is and giving me motivations n advices. My bestfriends like iffa, nurul and my close guyfrens who always respect my decisions and believe in my capability. Thank you so much people.. W/out all of you, i might still be the old me.. Fragile, broken, sensitive, no confidence..

What made my year when my mum told me i have grown alot, in the sense of thinking wise. And that really made me smile. I finally learnt to think using my brain instead of my heart.. I thank God for the life i have right now. A loving family, caring friends, good job, great colleagues... Other half? i leave that to Allah. I wonder too at times whose rusuk do i belong to.. Whatever my future gonna be, ill never forget this path i took. I wont regret leaving this cos i have given my best and it still failed, then Allah definitely knows better than me :) Mumma, mudak and all my friends been asking me who's my date now.. I can only smile cos i seriously have no answer to it. I told him before "if ever we break up, im gonna make sure the next person i date wld be my future husband and i want to love him more than how much i loved you" yeah i said tht few weeks before we broke up.. Mcm tau2 kn? frankly, i didnt know we were gonna break up, but well, alamat2 agaknye.LOL!

Okay my eyes are making its way to lala land.

For now, im loving my life and let's hope 2012 wld be a good year for all of us.

Amin :)

2011-01-11T15:50:00.000-08:00

Im loving the weather so much.
Off day like finally...
So im just gonna seat, relax, watch turvee, pamper myself with all the chocolates i have in my fridge..
While im having my offday today, this annoying drill of my neighbour just have to bug me.
Sickening ass..

So O level results were out yesterday.
It reminded me so much of what i went through last time..
I was extremely nervous, anxious, stress and all..
And now, 6 years has passed by..
Time really flies so fast.
I remembered the last time i was only celebrating my 17th birthday and now i'm reaching 23..
Time isnt gonna wait for us...
Whenever we had our free time, love n me wld always reminisce the moment we had together..
The kental days that made us who we are now..
Certainly, i wld say i miss my poly days..
Great friends, great experience and thanks to entering that sch, i had a chance to perform; something I've been longing for..
Good luck to those who made it, your future has just begun..
For those who didn't, don't worry too much.
God is fair, He must have something else for you.
Always remember not to stay down whenever you fall, pick yourself up again, show the world that you hve what it takes to move on.
After all, even Thomas Edison failed many times before his success in inventing the light bulb :)

I had an outing weeks back with my cousin after a long long time of not meeting up.
Finally we both took leave just for a catching up session.

time to take a nap..
**Yawwnnn**

2011-01-09T16:45:00.000-08:00

Yest aft work went to catch SawVII with love.
Swear i stopped eating popcorns the moment the show was on.
It was too gore tht i felt like throwing up..

We had dinner at sakura,
by then love's temperature was getting higher..
took train to bishan and when we got to my area, he vomitted out.
So he cab-ed home..
Poor you, get well soon okay, im really worried abt you.

Work's been fine except for its just hectic..
CNY's coming and im sure th branch will b overloaded..
Oh Gosh..

Love's left with one more year n he's really eager in leaving ns.
Well i can see th fact tht ns pay is really little.

Those are just old pixies.

Time to watch cuti cuti cinta again!

Lunch time now!

Blog again soon.

Dear Allah, please protect him, make him feel better, it breaks my heart to hear his sick voice :c

2011-01-01T00:40:00.000-08:00

Happy new year people.

I hope you guys had a great time spending th last few hours of 2010.
Well i did.
Spending few hours of 2010 with love.
Fetching me at orchard mrt and he was down with flu.
But we managed to carry on with our plan.
We chose kallang since marina bay n sentosa will b really packed.
Bowling session was really fun since he master the skills and beat me to it!
sheesh..
We went home like drunkards..
the effect of not staying out late at night for eons.
heh..

Whatever happened in th past stays in th past,
what i know is i'm bringing one past to my present and hopefully to my future,
that is you:)
As our joke will forever be "i love you too" :)

2010-12-07T23:00:00.000-08:00

this is what i'll send my bf when i have nothing to do.
but good thing is he always has something to say back.
Lol.

i think i have abandoned my blog for quite awhile.
i have also lost touch on how to update. hah..
anihoos, life's good except that its month end so th crowd is pretty bad..

alright i need to take a rest.

will do a proper update if ever i cn find th time.

good night people.

2010-10-24T00:00:00.000-07:00

To satisfy his non-stop cravings for thosai, we stopped by at jalan kayu
and he had 2rounds of thosai!
while i had my all-time-favourite mutton chop..

Happy monthsary love.

May all our wishes come true. Amin:)

2010-10-09T23:30:00.000-07:00

one moment we're up th next moment, we're down.
We argue, we fight, we hve our happy moments, our unforgettable sweet memories..
after all this years, you're still the one who is capable of making me hve butterflies in my stomach each time we hve a heart to heart talk..
I may not be perfect, but i promise i'll be good, be there when you need someone and importantly, still be here even if th world turn their back at you..

One month to go, my dear:)

2010-10-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

Kalau kaye je, smue suke?

Walaupun kehadiran die yg buat rumah tangga org lain porak peranda?

Tak ape, tak kisah, pasal die kaya?
Berkedudukan tinggi?

Harta nie dapat menutup mata, hati manusia, tapi pada hakikatnya,
kita smua tahu yg mane baik yg mane bukan..

Sesungguhnya, pada mu yg mencipta ku, jauh kan lah sifat2 keji sebegini dari ku, agar aku tidak terpesong,
tidak merampas kebahagiaan org lain, dan tidak membina kebahagiaan atas kekecewaan org lain..

Amin:)

2010-09-05T12:54:00.000-07:00

Selamat ramadhan to you too:)

Raya is just few days away and im still not prepared for it yet.
Baby and me got our baju raya after a whole lot of surveying was done..

Home sweet home today and yes kemas2 raya must be done today.

Been busy with work and i can't wait to drive during raya, it's been long since i last touch th steering wheel. haha..
this time round i hve my gps with me so i will not be making a lot of u-turns, i guess?
hahaha..

Alright i got to start tidying up my place nw.
Shall try to update as much as i cn.
I hope:)

Good day people.

I miss going around singapore taking photos with you, maybe we shall go again when we both hve th time ;)

2010-08-26T23:40:00.000-07:00

I never like th feeling of dejected.
I guess i shall put an end to let my past keep haunting me..
I dont want to end up wrecking what we have now and doubting his sincerity and faithfulness to me.
I get tired of feeling jealous all over and feeling uneasy all th time...
I know i had to fight all this and this has to start now..
So i told myself, if he didn't love me right from th start, he wouldn't have stayed with me despite my nonsense-attitude at times.
We broke up years back just to know we keep coming back like in a circle..
Yes i always remembered our conversation on eve of raya 2005 where he confessed everything to me. How much i mean to him how much he suffers when i went ahead to be with his friend.

He said something just now which made me think "If i've the will to face it,why not you.."

And i stopped thinking negatively, you and i, we were built to last.
We are destined to get back together for a reason.

I will work on my fears.

Watch me:)

2010-08-22T21:50:00.000-07:00

It's already past one week we have been fasting..
time flies pretty fast.
This fasting month is really challenging..
No matter what i shall always remind myself im here to do all this bcos of my responsibility towards Allah..

Semoga semua yg terjadi berikan aku semangat utk slalu teruskn brpuasa:)

Smallboy's sleeping since he is confined for one day.

Brother and me hve been discussing bout purchasing a kitty well we are pet lovers you see...
so we always argue on which kitty we shld consider buying.. heh...

geylang was disappointing..
I dont look forward to go there.
but i need to go since i have yet to buy my raya clothing.
frankly im in no mood for raya.
I am just looking forward for first day..

I hve been having breathing difficulty since morning and i feel like one gigantic rock on my chest that it takes thousand of efforts to breathe in and out...
I told mumma & she advised me to go for checkup..
I knw something is wrong bcos even when i swallow rice, i cn feel the pain..

i knw this post is all messy, i cnt be bothered..

gosh i think im closing my blog, soon.

goodnight.

2010-08-10T20:37:00.000-07:00

how's life for you now?

Life's been good so far. Thank you:)

2010-08-10T20:34:00.000-07:00

What are you working as?

Customer service executive.

2010-08-10T20:32:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan is here again, and i've always loved this month fo this is th holy month fo us to amend our mistakes and do more holy activities.

You know at times, i just hate how complacency arrives in situation.
When you have someone by your side all along and you dont treasure them and take them for granted til one day he/she's gone then you start to feel remorse and all..
Well i'm saying this as a whole, it doesn't matter who's th person to us, mother,father, teacher, sister,brother,boyfriend,gf,wife, husband...
Th thing about life is, its unpredictable..
That's what we hate about life at times.
There's no room fo hatred to happen.
We do not knw what will happen th next minute.. So i always tell myself no matter what i shall just treasure every minute with whoever i love. My mum,brother, bf and all my close mates.

Will update again if i have th time.

ℒℴvℯ yℴu , smallboy ♥

2010-08-01T02:31:00.000-07:00

Had two consecutive off days which is really good.
Did some shopping with mumma and i realised i overspent a lil this month.
uh oh:(

but lucky i still have some spare cash..
Friday went out with boyfriend and i was supposed to watch his match today which i eventually didnt go, realising i have a lot of housework to do..
Tomorrow is back to work.
And yes 8 more days to Singapore's birthday which means another off day for me!
weeeeeeeeee~

Time to fill my stomach with ramly foods.

Th weather's been unpredictable.
Try not to catch a cold people.
:))

2010-07-19T19:07:00.000-07:00

Busy with work but we did went out last saturday.
To watch inception.
Smuggled chickens from KFC and we had a feast inside. heh..
After which we decided to take a walk and realised that it was ndp rehearsal, just in time to catch th fireworks.
We joined th people at th padang and snapped pictures of fireworks and ourselves. heh

Took bus home as usual.
I always had a good time gg out with him.
Hope your lips hve recovered ok love..

Just like his post at Facebook, i am tired over issues about him.
So by all means if you want to try break us apart, you can try but rmbr you are also accepting th fact tht you are gonna be treated like tht one day ;))

Gonna grab my dinner now.

Til another update. hehe.

xoxo.

2010-07-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

The training is for what?

To learn new things before i start my job :)

Ask me anything

2010-07-11T19:00:00.000-07:00

Life is unpredictable.
Whether we plan or not, things happen and sometimes we will be disappointed or be excited fo th good stuffs.

Working life is really hectic not that i have not worked before, th environment is different now that i have to be really serious in work.
Not everyone will be glad with your presence.
There is no such thing as BFF in work.
I mean iam glad to hve a couple or two who is really helpful with me.
Since iam new, they never stop giving me motivations.
I love meeting new people, some of my customers even touched my heart.
Even though they may be a lil mentally disabled, their smile, always thanking me really made me moved.
I always tried to control my tears when serving these people..
We always complain about life and whatsnot but these people made us to be thankful to God fo what HE has given us.

My relationship's been good. Just hope everything will be fine as it is as days goes by.

I am really occupied with work that i can only afford to update like on sundays..?

Okay off to buy shoes with mumma now.

I never thought im still with him even after 4 years, what happened in th past, let it rot but let us also take it as a lesson. We will never be able to move forward if we keep dwelling on our past.

Treasure what you have now, stop complaining, or you'll no time to feel th pleasure of life.

2010-06-30T21:10:00.000-07:00

im shagged..

training has finally ended and funny that we ended up in tears.
I will miss all my SNEP 05 mates, through these days, we grow so close that
we shared everything together.

Especially my faezah baybeh and all th super close cliques of mine!

We shall watch eclipse together, dont forget!!
haha!

GST payout!
Bank will be flooded with customers!
happy serving people, including me -.-

I wanna grab my late late late dinner.

Shall try to update regularly.
heh..

Will miss you guys :(

2010-06-20T18:54:00.000-07:00

Lack of updates.

Im so occupied with training and time is not on my side.
1 week plus more to go!

Am so loving this training.
With all my favourite cliques..

So while having break faezah and me will just click2 here and there :DD

Yesterday went to marina bay sands resort with dear love.
Walked in to see th boutiques there and saw parts of th casino inside.
Th temptation of going in to see was so high!
Buttt, parting with 100bucks just to see see, well, perhaps, not th time yet. HAHA!

will try to update more if i can. hee.

lovelove.

2010-06-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

Well i just don't have th time to update now.
been busy attending training fo a month and off to start work.
weeeee!
Had tutorial on friday, was shagged like hell, we have to cover both books in a day.
My brain was draining out..
I was forcing myself to stay awake. hah..

i need to get another pair of stiletto heels since this one is falling apart.
gRrrRrr..
My days have been normal only thing that i am busy and he is busy too.
Every time i reach home, all i want is my bed.
i was calculating on how much i need to save since i am aiming to get a car in 3 years time,
and i was shocked at how rabak th COE is..
Mood teros lari...
*bye bye my dream car* :(
haha

Awesome day today with him just now.
Thank you, hans.
We were having such a good laughter and jokes all over til we almost forget th time.
heh,

Okay time to ZZzZzz..

Good night!
:)

2010-06-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

what's all this crap adding back your ex-es on Facebook?

Whats past is past la, like th saying goes, Fcuk th past, Kiss the present.

You lead your life and i'll lead mine, and keep on adding even after i ignore.

-_-"

Okay off to work! :D

2010-05-30T00:59:00.000-07:00

And so i finally get this skin fo ma firefox after a long time of hesitance. since im busy...

So cute and pretty.. heh

i have an outbreak now.
boohoo.
my cheeks look so abnormal to me now.
I complained to everyone i see infront of me.
mumma and brother said "heaty, go put cream"
but i know it's gonna take time fo it to go away.
My family doctor is away fo his holiday. FML :(

tomorrow is my rest day!
shall occupy my time on my precious bed :)))

now that i own platinum card, wah my hands feel itchy all over fo online shopping. how la dey? :(
Look at these babyphat bags, aaahhhhh......
Okay2 shall try to resist my temptation.

I am dozing off already.
shall turn in now.

Good night lovely readers, stay tune, always. ;)

2010-05-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

I am so occupied with work that i barely have time fo facebook & blog.

Am off to training on june 3rd, i hope i'll pass th test so i only have to take it once.

Been spending most of my time at work, or with family or with him.

So went out to town with baby earlier,today.
We had our late lunch at th famous indonesian cuisine at lucky plaza..
We were having a good laugh at his own funny faces he made.
Then off to cineleisure to hunt fo ma clothing..
Lucky thing i brought ma umbrella and it did help us abit.
heh.
cut it short, i am lazy to type evrything.

Hope you recover from your flu alright.

Im loving my life now and i hope this stays forever.

You always be my sunshine, and you know it how much your presence means to me. Thank you for everything,love :)

2010-05-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

Baby's conversation and i

Me: You tahu lagu say aah fabulous? Sedap, tuu my ringtone.
Him: I tahu, huh? Tuu my ringtone sey..
Him & Me: Kepo la you.

Hahaha. Funny..

Well, im tired to entertain nonsense shits from people, if you are trying to break us apart, then well, happy doing it. Cos karma will hit you right back on your face.
We are no celebrities, so why so unhappy seeing us together?

After all that we've been through, yes i still love him like i used to, infact, even more.
Say whatever you like, trying to bring my confidence level down, i just feel so numb i couldn't feel anymore.
So if you think you can tolerate my nonsense,shits, more than how he has tolerated, step into th ring, show me..
If not, please go away with your luggage of sympathies..

Lethargic. Argghhh.
Th weather's great!
Time fo me to sleep.

Nitey nite baby :)

2010-05-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

And I miss you so much thou we just met just now.
Thank you, sweetheart:)

2010-05-15T20:14:00.000-07:00

I dont know what's my future like.
I don't know what God has in store fo me.

I just hope that im doing th right thing right now.

Im just letting th days go with th flow.

My happy pills

:)

They've been nice to me and always pampering me. hahah

Life, please be kind to me.

2010-05-13T14:00:00.000-07:00

: thank you fo your compliment. There's no specialty in my make ups. I practice applying moisturizer
before i put on make up and after i wash my face. Keep make up simple and nice. Avoid wearing too heavy, we'll look fake. Good day anonymous :)

Weather's been good, raining and cold..

I had an awesome time during graduation day.
Meeting all my course mates and exchanging wishes.
Awww.

Been quite busy with work, and time fo my family..
Now that i have a bit of spare time during work, i shall update.
Soon i will move into another sector.
Which i am very scared about.
I hope i made th right decision.

Congratulations to my dear friend, Nurul Huda fo getting engaged.
How time flies, you are already taking another step forward.
Alhamdulillah :)

So life goes on, and if we notice, th day changes pretty fast.

Thank you Allah fo all these that you have stored fo me, mama fo being th most patient and loving mum in my eyes, brother fo always giving me undying spirit and believing in me, baby fo your presence & motivations and my friends fo making my life a joyful ride :)

Sesungguh nya kita merancang, Tuhan menentukan.
Semoga setiap langkah kita, direstui oleh Nya.
Amin.

2010-05-10T17:03:00.000-07:00

Had a wonderful mother's day celebration for mumma yesterday with Abang.
Looking at her, iam so proud to be her daughter, and through all the sacrifices she made,i know i can never make such big sacrifices like her.
She isnt only a good mother, but a good father, grandma, friend to us.
Thank you mumma fo your sacrifices, dollars, and all just to see us through the years.
We will never forget your kindness,love & everything.

Each time you will jokingly say "your mother in law better what"
You never know how perfect you are in my eyes that no other is of th same standard as you.

Happy Mother's day mama, hope you like th bag and had a great day yesterday, i love you :)

2010-04-30T22:35:00.000-07:00

Havent been religiously updating so considering that its labour day tomorrow which means im not working, im taking th time to update now.

Been busy working and i've paid my home bills as well as my phone bill.

It seems that i lost my interest in blogging..
Uh oh.
haha..

Shopping tomorrow with baybeh cos i need some pretty outfit fo graduation, well actually i run out of formal outfits..
And i need to get fish tank fo my 2babies so they'll get a better home.

Everything involves money. Urgh.

But but but something brightened up my day just now.
I hope it's a new start to my bright bright future.
InsyaAllah...

i dont really have much to share cos my time is filled up with work.

You know people, as th saying goes
" Watch th way you live your life cos you reap what you sow. "
I strongly believe in it because life is fair, and how you want others to treat you starts with how you want to treat others. I dont want to be mean but i cried after all that incident. And being a girl herself, she doesn't even understand my position. Which hurt me painfully.. And now she's facing it. No im not laughing at her at all, but Allah is always there fo people who is right. And i always hve faith in HIM.

It's never easy to be in a relationship especially if you encounter 3rd parties that even they know your partner is attached, they still go "SO?"
I only have one word fo people like them "Cheap."
:)))

My phone has a scratch mark on its screen protector.
I accidentally placed my hairpin on it..
:((
Now i need to get a new one.
so troublesome...

Baby is asleep leaving me all alone.
But still i think im sleeping soon, shagged,sleepy..

Thank you fo being so loyal to my blog.
Pardon fo ma lack of updates.
& my jumble up stories.
Lazy luhhh.

Good night sweetcakess..

PS: I still ♥ you :)

2010-04-25T20:00:00.000-07:00

You know i still need time to put all this behind me

If i laugh and smile that doesn't mean i have forgotten all that has happened.

Im taking this a step at a time.

2010-04-22T23:32:00.000-07:00

As a matter of fact, i dont give a damn to those who wants to bring me down, give me nothing but sadness to my life.
Well you can just kindly leave my life. Cos i can always live without you.

I can always cope on my own:)

Oh work work work..

TGIF tomorrow!

oohhhweeeeeee~

I dont have much time to update. time fo me to get my beauty sleep.
Good night people.

i cant wait to see my eyecandy tmrrw.
hahaha.

2010-04-20T22:23:00.000-07:00

Th weather is so unpredictable nowadays.

Work's been fine so far.
I dont have time to update that much.
Baby's been a good smallboy. heh.
That boy always up to his mischievous acts.
And he has been tolerating my tired mood and tantrums.
With th "sape kasik you marah? blg blg!" hahaha..
Jokingly of course.

Tomorrow's another day of work.

Oh before i forget, congratulations smallboy fo being able to finish up th whole thing by yourself.
I am always proud of you:)

Alright time fo me to turn in.

Nighty night people.
Be content with all that you have.

xoxo.

2010-04-18T00:36:00.000-07:00

Salam takziah kepada keluarga beliau.
Inalillah.
Semoga dia di tempatkan di golongan orang2 beriman. Amin.

Semoga tuhan mencucuri Rahmat ke atas rohnya, Abdillah Murad Md. Shari(achik spin).

Al-Fatihah.

2010-04-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

When i say im tired, i mean it.

so stop irritating me and get a life, fucker.

2010-04-14T22:20:00.000-07:00

I've been really busy with work so pardon fo ma lack of updates.
I only have night time to update my blog which at times i get so tired that i just want to sleep.

From formspring:

To anonymous, i dont have any secret at all. I behave, talk just like anyone else.
I drink plain water to detoxify my body. But most importantly, be sincere to all th people around you, i know it may sound cheesy but i always practice this. I believe how you are inside will reflect on your physical aspects:)

Okay iam lethargic...
soo sooo much.
I need my sleep.
I'll try as much as i can to update before my blog starts to grow fungus.
Hehs.

Night lovely readers.

2010-04-11T17:40:00.000-07:00

To reply to someone who asked me in formspring.

Q. What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?

A. One thing that i shld probably throw away is my old hp. But i can't bring myself to do it, prolly it gives me too much of memories. hehs

Sorry fo th late reply thou, i wasn't aware someone asked me a question.

Good day people.

2010-04-10T23:50:00.000-07:00

Okay so since i've started working, i have not been updating religiously.
Each time i reach home, i just feel like showering, eat then off to bed.
But i know i hve other things to do too.
Work was fine, new to stuff, but once iam familiar with th whole thing, it's gonna be chicken kaki la dey. Cheyy MP, i know.
Pardon me lor, iam updating with my eyes half closed ready.

TOMORROW no work which means more rest and mayb go out?

heh, today aft work, cab-ed to meet baby.
Oh while waiting, i saw an accident, th rider was dead.
Scary...
Damn blardy cab charges, they think they are driving us in a lambo isit?
Fucking EXXXX.

Anihooos, reached and we wenta town at our usual makan place to fill our empty perots..
After which went to Bridge road to get his name tag and get his tulang. LOL
After tht?
Home sweet home.........
Wahh it feels so good to be home, damn tired...

Baby, well we both have talked about this. We are not gonna hve so much time together as we had in th past, like you mentioned, this is a test and i hope we'll sail this journey together, come what may. InsyaAllah:) I cherish what we talked about today :))))

2010-04-08T15:38:00.000-07:00

I dont know if what im doing right now is th right thing.

I hope it is.

:)

2010-04-07T23:40:00.001-07:00

2010-04-07T23:40:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome day today.

I was bored, th fact that i am always alone at home just made me feel so useless..
So i went out with mas today and she(skip her work). heh
We went to centrepoint to get her NIKE slippers.
bleaahh.
Told her to get slipper jepon tanak.
Hahah!
We went to LJS first to satisfy my hunger.
It seems that everytime we step into LJS, we always meet with "seksa" girls.
lol
After which went to get her slippers, atlast....
went around town first and proceeded to Grandlink fo some singsong session. hehe
My my, we went into toilet just to bump into indon prostitutes...
I was so ashamed, i mean i am a girl myself, buat malu kaum pompan je...
They were dolling up themselves and talking about how sexy their outfits were.
I was disgusted like hell....

Sing-sing with our neighbour replaying "bila rindu" almost all th time.
I guess they are practicing fo some singing comp? haha
Next?
Home sweet home lerr.

Thanks Mastura fo th lovely day :)

2010-04-04T23:20:00.000-07:00

Photoshoot on Friday didnt turn out well since th weather wasn't on our side.
It was pouring and right after th rain has stopped, i got bitten by mosquitoes all over.
What makes me more upset, i was th only one gotten bitten.
Boohoo.
He only managed to take some pictures of me.
After which we proceeded to MacD to ease my craving fo ice cream. heh.
Yummmy yummyyy...
We went back early just to catch Senario on tv.
Haha!

I never like to judge people.
You see we all have our own strengths and flaws.
But i just hate th fact that some people just don't know their boundaries as friends,cousins, whatever...
I am not dragging this definitely, but her words are so contradicting to her actions.
Never never never in my life i approached my cousin(even thou he has my numbr), or even any guys to ask if they are still using tht numbr. i knw its nothing wrong but this is just my principle. i know wher's my stand as a girl. i treasure my pride and dignity very much.
th younger generations are so brave now, i wouldn't say all, some atleast.
when i was her age, i was still busy enjoying life with my girlfriends, studying..
haha.
you can call me a geek, i love to be one.
Atleast i dont wreck people's relationship :)
No i dont feel threatened by her actions, i just hope she'll wake up knowing th Dos and Donts to someone who is attached.

Anihoos, it's confirmed that i will start working soon.
Welcome to th pencil,pen,paper,stress world, Lyana.
:( :( :(
Things are sure gonna get tougher, and i hope i will always have God's guidance to guide me all th way.
InsyaAllah :)

Rest well baby, i hate to see whenever you get sick. i'll always pray fo your good health.
=)

2010-04-03T01:01:00.001-07:00

Ouch ouch.
Everytime i sneeze i could feel th pressure running through my forehead.
:(((

Im starting work soon i guess.
My family have been pressurizing me to start work...
But its far away from home.
and and its been a long time i dint work..
God, im sure i need some time to adjust myself back.

Well in life there are bound to have th good and bad incidents in life.
Funny that i tend to remember more of th bad than th good ones.
If you encounter too much of bad moments in certain phase of life, dont be sad.
Atleast you feel what it's like to get hurt so much.
You gained experience you see. heh.
I faced too much of bad moments that i barely remember how it feels like to be happy.
haha
At certain point in life when you get hurt too much, you heart just turns numb.
I always thought it was a cliche. But no, it was proven.
You see,one should never take trust for granted.
One should learn to love someone as much as how they love themselves.
If love is so sacred to them, they should learn to treasure you.
Who says love consists of 3 people?
Or even more?
hahah!
so today i say i love you to Jack tomorrow im saying it to Tom who knows th day after tomorrow im going to say it to Paul?
hahaha!
Who says 3rd parties need to have some "mushy texts"?
We girls, have this intuition that God has given us.
And this intuition is always Right.
When we feel something is not right, we know that something, somewhere is wrong.
We just pretend not to get too bothered by it.
But we do think a lot about it.
And if you think we will never leave you, you're wrong.
We may promise and all, but if its too much to handle, who wants to be your puppy?
Girl's patience is very high so dont abuse it.
You know i never believed in such thing called love.
i had boyfriends before, but i never took their words so seriously.
Hahah, it was just a defense so i wont get hurt.
And true enough after each breakup, i could easily move, be happy like normal.
like th breakup didnt even happen.
Haha..
call me evil or whatever, come on at times we need to learn to love ourselves more.
Nahh this whole thing isn't about me, just that i get to see too much of guys abusing girls trust.
Tsk tsk, you know we girls are so weak(physically) and perhaps emotionally, you guys still want to let us cry and all.
Try to be us for one day, and you know how tough to fight with pms, emotions, confusion, insecurities and all.
Yes yes we know you guys also have emotions, we are not blind...
So th more you should be careful with our heart, then you'll get th bestest treatment from us, girls.
I sound sexist right?
I think i am. hahah!
We all have heard Casanova, buaya and all.
So when will we hear "gentlemen of th year?"

Prove us, we are th only one that you NEED.

nah, my baby and me, we are doing great,i still love my boyfriend very much:)

2010-03-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

Oh headache please go away.
I dont feel good.
Every time i eat i feel like vomiting back.
FO fever FO migraine.
Bitch.

I hope tomorrow's interview will go smoothly.

Hey baby, i just hope we'll make it real this time.
I do feel afraid at times and maybe you too feel it.
i hope you feel content having me as your gf.
I know im not perfect, i make mistakes along th way.
Mayb my love is not as strong as Juliet to Romeo, but I've always given you th best i could.
I hope you'll be able to feel my seriousness, sincere love towards you.
Insya-Allah... Amin :)

Tiada manusia yang mahu berkongsi cintanya.

2010-03-31T00:03:00.000-07:00

Dont bite the hands that feed you.

I get so pissed hearing what you kept accusing my mum..
I thought you were fine with my mum all along.
What your family is up to, is definitely outrageous..
Stupid low class tactics.
But well im gonna stay in my seat and watch your game cos it's gonna be fun.
Who says th bad will win in th end?
Never in fairy tales and never in real life...
You are just bunch of losers in my eyes.
Oh wait, i dont regret not entertaining your son's msges and feelings...=)

This world is full of evil-minded people.
Money makes them blind and power makes them forget their roots.

If all this happens to my family, i only hope and pray that we are able to counter these obstacles and may these incidents made us even stronger as a family.
So much happened to my family since th loss of my ...
I cn only pray and hope we all have faith and never give up(:
We can be patient all th time but dont trigger our maximum level.
No iam not afraid of your actions or even your blardy bomoh2....
I am only afraid to the One that created me(:

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menguji diluar kemampuan kita."

2010-03-29T23:40:00.000-07:00

They say life's a roller coaster.
Then when is my turn to feel th highest energy?

I have one annoying pimple on my right cheek just beside my nose.
It's ton-ning on my face fo almost a week.
Blardy hell, even oxy 10 doesnt work now.
GrrRrRrRrrr....

You know there are certain things in life that is beyond control..
And one of those is feelings..
I dont know, but i know my heart only recognizes your name.
Each time you're by my side i feel everything just fall into their right place
Thou we fight like kucing and dog, i will immediately let my heart cool down bcos i cant afford to get angry at you fo so long..
It kills me inside everytime we go mocking at each other..
I just feel like patting on your head and tell you how much i love you, my smallboy..
You'll always be that smallboy in my eyes, with your forever-littlechildren-punye jokes, with your behaviors always trying to make me smile, with-your-angry-face that i just want to make you pengsan(rmbr what i told you?) hah!
There are things that iam clever at, but one thing im never good at, making my heart stop beating fo you(:
Each time we tried to put this love to a stop, we'll burst into tears and reminisce those happy moments we both went through.
why should we bury those years that were built based on our sincerest love?

So why do i love you?
I can lay it out thousand of reasons why you're in my heart but words can do no justice to th love and sacrifice you had fo me.
Besides th fact i find you gorgeous-looking-boy, i like just th way you are.
Your smile, your nose, your eyes, your everything.
Your nagging, your worries about me, your non-stop"compiter", your cheeky face, your gorilla temper,your non-stop"pape ah" when deep down you know you care so muchh about me. hehe...
And when you had a bad dream,you'd call me & you sound so cute like a lil baby crying fo his mummy.
And when you try to have a heart to heart talk to me, you'll sound so malu2 like as if we were new to each other:))))
You'll always complain if i dont kiss your hand properly after our fights..
You always give me flying kisses when im in th lift gg up even thou there were other people inside..
You always give me that look that i cannot bear to let you go..
I love your big gigantic hands that i always compare with mine..
And when i played with your ears, lipat them to really make them look smaller you wld say "jgn you,sakittt, jgn main telinga" then i would play with your another ear.. and you would have that *anything just to make you happy* face.
I love brushing our nose together..
I love you smelling my hair..
I love seeing you imitating a lion's dance head
You'd always jokingly cover my eyes in a movie if ther were kissing scenes..
You'd give me that 'mad' face when i praise some actors..
You always want to carry me whenever i said im tired..
You always find things to disturb about me, which i find it cute.
And above all, i just simply love you...

You asked me when you were walking me home
"do you regret being with me?"

No i don't baby, never have, never will.

if there were one million boys infront of me,i definitely choose your smile:)

Nobody owns this heart other than you.
I love you, Masnashzreen Masturi.

2010-03-27T15:45:00.000-07:00

Mata kata cantik kerana rupa,
Akal kata cantik kerana otaknya,
Hati kata cantik kerana akhlaknya.

-RP

I love this sentence so much.
It makes alot of sense.
We are just blinded by physical beauty, both men and women.
Til we forgot th inner beauty that brings out th whole thing from a person.

Honestly, i dont even bother looking twice at someone who is good looking or pretty.

Unless that someone dresses up soo sopan-ly, i will look at her/him so many times la!
haha!

After being through a lot of obstacles, i realised that not everyone is comfortable to see our happiness.
Some may be happy fo us, some may try to steal that happiness away from us.
Tak kisah la happiness dari segi ape.
They will poison your mind with whatever that is able to change your mind but if you are strong enough, stop and think fo awhile.
It's you who are going through all this, and for once just listen to your heart.

i realised i've lost so many people that i love in my life and i don't want to lose anymore.

I miss you, th old you(:

2010-03-27T14:30:00.000-07:00

"Dan segala sesuatu Kami ciptakan berpasang pasangan supaya kamu mengingati kebesaran Allah"

-Al Quran surah az-Zariyat ayat 49.

2010-03-26T13:00:00.000-07:00

Socially Awkward Situation #1:
You’re in class and you want to cough. Some other guy just coughed, now you have to wait.

Socially Awkward Situation #2:
Someone calls in your direction. You raise your hand to wave. It turns out they weren’t calling you. You casually fake a head-scratch. It’s too late; everyone saw.

Socially Awkward Situation #3:
You sit down on a chair and it makes a fart-like noise. You attempt to make the noise several more times so that everyone knows you didn’t really fart.

Socially Awkward Situation #4:
You hold the door open for one person. Now you have to hold it for everyone behind them; if you let go, they’ll think you’re selfish and un-mannered.

Socially Awkward Situation #5:
Talk to your date while eating. Accidentally spit a tiny bit of food onto them.

Socially Awkward Situation #6:
“Excuse me, do you stock ________?”
But they don’t work there.

Socially Awkward Situation #7:
He goes in for a high-five. You go in for props.

Socially Awkward Situation #8:
Walk into the washroom and the stalls are full; pretend you only came here to wash your hands then leave.

Socially Awkward Situation #9:
You check your phone because you have nothing to say to the conversation.

Socially Awkward Situation #10:
Someone comes online; you say “hey”, they go offline.

Socially Awkward Situation #11:
The person in front is walking slightly slower than you are. You walk at an uncomfortable speed to get past them.

Socially Awkward Situation #12:
Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.

Socially Awkward Situation #13:
You say “hi” to someone. It comes out as a whisper.

Socially Awkward Situation #14:
You fart and sneeze at the same time.

2010-03-26T00:03:00.000-07:00

Bad day ..
Iam having migraine & fever..
It seems that my fever have not leave me at all.
It comes and go.
I just feel like lying on my bed all day..
When i went to th doctor he said i had conjunctivitis.
He asked if i had fever , i said no.
At that moment i didnt feel any body heat at all.
Until few days later my fever went on and off.
I have difficulty in doing housework all i want is to shut my eyes and go to sleep.
I think i need to get those antibiotics since iam feeling very feverish now.

Buttt..
i am superrr happpyyyy!!!!!
Check out my status!

So now its confirmed i have graduated!
heh..
tough life yknow in poly...
Keeping up th pace, especially my course, majority are guys.
Their brains are like 2 times faster than us, girls.
hahah!

I am thinkin of pursuing a degree..
Should i?
But i want to work first to ease my mum's burden..
Well part time degree?
Ahhh life's tough..
Hoowww?
Confused sangaattt...
My brother and i, we are very competitive!..
In a good way thats what i like..
hahaha!
But okay la i can't deny th fact he's wayyy hardworking and intelligent than me...
Nooot fairr...
He always ace in his mathematics... but i ace in my english literature..
hahaha!

Well i am thinking of taking private diploma in accounting..
I always wanted to take accounts again.
Ooooohhh life is full of studying...
heh..

I tell you a story. I was an accounting lover..
I studied accounting like it was my passion.
When i was in sec 4, my bestfriend was in th same class as me.
We had N level on tht day. She always relied on me fo accounting..
Believe it or not she turn around asking me th sheets and literally take th piece of paper on that particular question from me to copy.
YES she did that!
hahaha!
Glad we tak kene tangkap..
heh

All i want now is to make my family and myself proud..

I'll make sure i stand up straight right after i fall...
Nothing is gonna be a barrier to my happiness.
I am still a human being after all, but that doesn't give you th right to say such things to me.

Well, no matter what i shall smileee and smilee and smile cos i know myself better than you!
=))))))))
Th more you bring me down th further i'll be from you. Ty=)))

It's funny how people can come out with 101 reasons why you're so bad in their eyes when you have 1001 reasons why you are good.

Fo all i know i am not perfect, show me a perfect human being, and i'll show you a talking hamster.
hahaha!

So let's be positive =)

Good night readers.

2010-03-24T11:30:00.000-07:00

Laugh it out people!

2010-03-24T01:08:00.000-07:00

Another day has passed and night is here again.
Well i love blogging at night, i dont know it seems that i get inspired at night, having th idea on what to blog. heh.

I woke up at 10 plus, had breakfast watched dvds.
Then i fell asleep again.

All th way until 6plus.
I just couldnt seem to wake up.
But it was nice spending time in bed since i wont be able to do so after i get a job.

At night i was surfing net when i saw my fellow course mates, poly mates twittering and facebook-ing their encounters on results.
Results are finally out.
Of course my heart was pumping out so loudly.
Well, this is th stage to determine whether or not i passed.

I cried when i checked.
Tears of happiness, when was th last time i cry bcos i was happy?
hahaha!
I walked to mumma, crying and said i passed
she was eating she said "huh?"
so i repeated and she hugged me..
awwwww.. heh

Of course i cried,i had so much memories in RP with friends, teachers, fellow course mates.
I will miss them all.
Those who never fail to make me smile,laugh.
Esp my course mates, they are th best classmates i ever had though at times they can get annoying by always calling me 'minah' but well i got used to it. hahah
I must admit i had all th good teachers in my 3 years of poly.
Especially during my year 3.
My music theory faci who gave me undying spirit to understand music since i have no music theory background at all.
My linux faci who believed in me, motivates me and making me sure i have no problems.
My intrusion detection system faci who always talk about her son and got th whole class laughing. She's so gerekk...
My java faci who always purposely sit beside me and watch me do coding...
haha!
I have so many great things to blog about my life in RP, at one look RP is boring but well is the people you mix with will make your journey amazing.
And thankfully i have my great peeps who are always willing to help me and all.
I mixed with th good malays who always remind me of Allah and to always believe in fate.
I mixed with th good chinese who never failed to make me laugh, sharing knowledge together.
And i mixed with th 4 indians that i have so far, heh. They are awesome!
Practically we are all multi racial. hahah

I never regretted th decision in being close with th malay peeps.
Thou they may look like no dress sense, kental, but hey they have th hearts of a gold.
True what th elderly say, with who you are mixing with, mould what type of person you are going to be.
Try look around if you dont believe(:

On another note, my dearest lovely cousin, thank you fo listening to me.
We shall go karaoke soon together okay?
I miss you so much.
Hahah, we and our forever nonsense..
So sweet when you blog about "i hate to see someone hurting or making her upset"
hehe..
Meet you superr soon.

And mastura, we shall go karaoke also.
I think i want to ask nad along, da lame tk nmpk die.
Ramai2 kan la, bole berjemaah skali. haha!

Thank you people fo th concern.

Good night lovely readers, Moga mimpi2 indah:)

2010-03-22T23:04:00.000-07:00

Haha you people who tagged are so funny.
You guys made my day so much...
=)))

nurul: omfg. the hidong, bawang at my rumah eh. oopps.
-great minds think alike! heh

Ayuketot: *her
Ayuketot: hahaaa. masey bwh umur siee,muke anak2 abu sie! But cnfrm ur boyf choose u nort him. cos ure way ttoo gorgeous ok:)
-yes she is still a young bird. Unfortunately she doesnt act her age and tried so hard to appear mature but failed. awwww. thanks jastina. But it's not about th appearance in overall, its th golden heart that is important. But i cant see that from her.lol

Aniways, iam not gonna waste my energy on someone like her
who will never spare a thought fo others.
Just hope her mind will widen up and stop messing with attached guys.

I am trying to put that hidung bawang behind me.
Breathe in breathe outtt...
wwoooohhhh aaahhhh.

Okay moving on, iam still recovering from this sakit hati.
hahaha!

i miss singing.
karaoke anyone?
We'll go in a big big group have fun sing song then become nyonya2 ktv.
hahaha!

alright will update soon.

th funniest part after reading my previous post, boyf said
"th best part is th last part"

well. thankyou. heh

xoxo.

2010-03-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

lalalalala..

I think also not fair tau you mentioned me thrice in your blog or something?

You want fame , popularity , attention eh?

Okay laaa.

read this first.

9. Tarikh Lahir pada 10, 16 & 21

Suka bekerja keras, memiliki nafsu yang tinggi dalam usaha mencapai cita-citanya. Dalam pergaulan sehari-hari dia merupakan orang yang mudah tersinggung. Namun begitu dia seorang yang jujur & tabah dalam menghadapi persoalan. Soal cinta dia sangat setia dan sebab itulah dia mudah disenangi. Tapi dia seorang yang terlalu cemburu. Kalau baik dia sangat baik dan kalau jahat dia merupakan orang yang paling jahat.

Ahh kalau jahat merupakan palinggg jahat.
heh heh.
come see my evil ...
I am always nice tauu
Ask my friends, i sacrifice alot.
but if you push me too far, you'll get to see this devil side of me.

orang diam2, kau macam2 eh anak abu...
Cakap pity my boyfr la ape la.
Kalau pity , pegi la gy mataer ngn die..
Pegy , aku nk tengok kau tahan ke tak....

Sdare... Otak kau...

Hah this is th girl.
She blog masnashzreen all over.
'' i miss him ''
bla3...

the one on th left..

Oh look what i found.
She just pulled any guys to take pictures with her.
And being lelaki standard ah "perasan handsome" , tros jubo kembang since org tarik tangan suro amek gmba same2 what?

this is th comment fo this picture.
Senang gtu deh exchanged number.

LELONG LELONG!

One of th post about masnashzreen..
wuhooo, nash mummy said tht to her daddy.
Okaylar makcik , i anything goes.
Lagipun, saya tk rugi pape klao tk kahwin ngn anak makcik.
Sesungguhnye sblm berjumpa dengan die pon saye maseh bernafas ;)

ahh this was actually taken when he had his final match and i was there.
Tak nampak si pompan nie pulak.
Suke eh snap2 pic mataer org then masok alam fantasy sendri.
Padan la (insert)_______ besar. hahaha!

Okay la aku malas nk layan orang2 mcm gini.
Nak blog blog. Eeeeikkk kents..
You got hal you talk to me personally.
Why blog abt me?

Kau nk kate2 aku mcm2...
Kau ade akhlak takde nie ?
Kite masok bab agame sikit eh.

Sesiape yang cube meruntuh kan kebahagiaan orang lain, dosa namanya.
Tak pegi madrasah eh dulu?

Oh sibuk amek gmba ngn lelaki2..
Lupe dehh.

Kau ngn kakak sdare kau nk mati2 kn aku?
K aku sorg stand up sini. Tkde nk tarik kakak sdare ke bapak sedare masok frame.

Tapi i also cannot blame her alone..
Tepuk sblh tangan tk berbunyi kn?

I also dont like to b a hindrance.
Sedare mahh.
Mak nye pon da kate gitu...
I tknk ckp pape lor..

Aku tak pena malu kn org pasal aku tk suke la.
Tapi nie part kan limit aku smpai da membuak2..

No no im not revenging.
Tapi only here i can let it out.

Dalar Musfirah, you want him so much right?
Talking to him is like th best moment of your life?

Okay , i pass him to you ok?
Takot die tkde , kau tkle bernafas pulak walaupon (insert) besar.
hahahaha!

Sorry readers, i dont usually talk like this, but i have to stoop her level since i am talking about anak2 abu :(

Last kopek ahh..

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Nak macam2 lagi?

Aku spanar hidong kau kang!

2010-03-21T01:05:00.000-07:00

Tonight is a cold and beautiful night. I'm updating thru my phone well I'm so impressed by what this phone offers.

Anihoos, Iam sooo happy as I went shopping just now. heh. Bought dress and make up stuffs..

well pardon me fo my lack of updates, I just don't feel th thrilled in updating so far. heh. Perhaps I just am tired of having stangers to know my ongoings in life.
What has happened between me and him is not much of a biggie. I just don't want people to poke their nose in my life. I appreciate those who are really sincere and concern. Esp Mastura since we exchanged so much stories together.
I know when it comes to problem, I have difficulty in managing my temper. But well I still am
improving myself.
I hate th fact tht people take advantage of your situation.
Be it whether you are telling th truth or spouting nonsense, God knows it all. I was confiding in someone when he just had to added salt to th wounds.
As a matter of fact, we all have our dark past. You don't have to add more of your own ingredients to his side of story. I know he was kinda
rebellious in th past. which boy wasn't? Tell me. I have been together with him fo years. We have seen all sides of each other. And when you tell me tht kinda story, it got me pissed to be honest. If ever he is breaking any promise , doing things behind my back or whatever, God will
show me th truth. I don't need people like you to wreck my relationship. What makes me think this way?
Immediately after i had arguments with him you texted me "If I still sayang you, do you trust me?" I dint reply and then you texted me saying you want to meet me. If you are really concern about my situation, you wouldn't be saying all tht.

Honestly, I had enough of hearing shits, lies in my life. For once, let me live peacefully. Whether or not we will end up marrying each other,
that is still a question.

And all these years, I really learnt alot. Not just about love, but also sacrifices, hardships, compromising.
If some would tell me Iam stupid as to be with him, well you don't know what we've been through. He cried me a river, he swallowed my nonsense and still says "I will not give up" And even after all tht he put me through, I am still here by his side. I believe In every chapter there's a turning point. (:

2010-03-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

toodles.

2010-03-17T21:21:00.000-07:00

i dont understand why girls nowadays are so brave tht they forgot they are girls?
Yes iam referring to those who are not ashamed of themselves.

Th reason why i dint blog fo quite some time is tht i just dont find th need to.
What has happened made me open up my eyes wider.
Ladies who are attached , now it's not about your guy alone that you have to worry about but is about these ladies out ther who are th 'buaye betina'
Note i dont mean all.

I meant those who are so taktau malu , even they know your man is attached to you, they can still miang2 here & ther.
AND whats worst, they dont feel guilty at all.

Beware of who your guy is mixing around with.
Take note of their every single step.

believe me, these kind of girls will stoop to th lowest level just to get near to your guy.

But well , ther's always karma right ?

I wonder what would they feel when it hits them back.
Will they be able to withstand it?
will they recall back whatever they have caused to others?

I still believe in my own principles.
I never have messed in people's relationship and i never will.

And specially to that little girl, if you said im jealous, yeah i am. i'm born with feelings babe.
Stop thinking you're not ruining when you are actually doing so.
Your words are contradicting my dear, You said you're not interested when you said you miss him all over your blog.
No use bitching about me in your blog and your facebook.
Come find me.
I'll b glad to listen to your anak abu stories and all.
So i shall assume you have never been in love? Since you do not knw how to put yourself in my shoes.
I dont fight over cyber.
Cos i find it pointless.
When you're still wearing uniform, act as one (:

Frankly, we are world's apart. For one important difference, i do not behave th way you do (:

2010-03-16T02:10:00.000-07:00

Matter of fact is i cant be bothered with people like you anymore.

You're just contradicting yourself.

I dont hide behind my computer and fight it over th cyber.
Crap.

Come find me.

Facebook me. whatever if you are not satisfied.

Bitch.

2010-03-13T11:25:00.000-08:00

a bright new sunny day today. may all of us enjoy this weekend people.

to err is human but tht doesn't mean we have to stay in tht shell always.
well life's never easy but it's also not tough to live in honesty(:

xoxo.

2010-03-12T13:28:00.000-08:00

woohoo.
I'm posting using my new phoneyyyy. Iam loving this.
well today is a bright sunny day.
so people have lots of fun and water. heh.

we live just once so let's fully utilized it! (:

2010-03-11T02:20:00.001-08:00

I am so tired..

Been busy with mostly housework since mumma just had her eye surgery.

So now is march, results are coming out soon i supposed?
Its something im not looking forward to.
haha.

Well i need to go on some vacation.

I miss going out of Singapore.
=(((

I miss more getting on th plane.

Oh well.

will update more.

on th other note, i miss driving so much.
Should drive when time is all by my side.

Toodles.

2010-03-09T02:10:00.000-08:00

kindness are not always paid with kindness.

We have to accept th fact not all human beings act like one.

2010-03-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

2010-03-04T00:02:00.000-08:00

Argh. this is driving me crazy.

Every single time when i plugged in my SD card into my lappy after transferring all th pictures and when i on my digi cam again, it says write protect.

It got me so mad.

I had to reformat it again and again in order to be able to take pictures again.

So i decided to switch to Mac OS!

i tried to take pictures and doing th same thing.

After transferring, on my digi cam and tadaaaaa!

it works perfectly fine.

Yeah , iam so gonna discard my xp soon right after i transfer all necessary stuffs into my macOs.

Alright time to sleep, will update soon.

Gotta wake up early later.

xoxo.

2010-03-03T12:33:00.000-08:00

One day, a professor asked his students ‘Why do we SHOUT instead of speak when we are ANGRY?’

All the students thought for a while. One answered ‘Because we lost our cool. That’s why we SHOUT.’

Asked the professor again, ‘But the person is just right next to you, why can’t we talk softly but have to SHOUT?’

Everyone gave their opinions but none was accepted by the professor.

Lastly explained by the professor ‘When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us.’

‘But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder…’

‘It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why?’

‘This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepen, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words.’

‘We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look,’ concluded the professor.

‘Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.'

2010-03-03T01:43:00.000-08:00

I want every moment to be like th first.

Every moment we are together just like th first time we were.

2010-03-02T17:56:00.000-08:00

2010-03-02T14:39:00.000-08:00

Hilarious like hell.

2010-03-01T23:00:00.000-08:00

We all have been in love.
With our family, friends, special ones...

We fall in love, we get broken, we faced happiness, we faced depression.
All.

In life, never rush for things as special as love.
I always heard people who have nvr been in a rshp going 'i want to have a partner'

I met a few wrong ones in th past.
And yes after years late(now) i do somehow feel regret about not being really patient in waiting fo th right one

But well th past ones have taught me to be careful and just be a lil patient
After all they say, we have to meet few wrong ones before meeting th right one eventually
So how do we know if th one we are with is th right one fo us ?
Beats me either.

I guess it's all in your heart.
What i learnt is never to give your all with that someone until they have proven they are worthy of your love.
What i meant by all are emotions, attention..

I've learnt th fact in life that ther's never a time th person whom we love will not hurt us.
Stop being delusional.
We will get hurt, it's only a matter of time.
But by getting hurt taught us to be more cautious.

So what if we get together with th wrong one.
Well i just take it like a stepping stone to success(th right one)heh

and yes it isn't called love if your partner forced you to do something you refuse to.

I had quite a long conversation with him over th phone just now.
I was reading up my diary fo him and laugh my way through all those kental moments.
It's funny how when i met him , then i hated him to th core.
Don't ask me why , maybe cos he used to be th 'tak kesah' guy.
He wasn't really into love at that moment.

I never expected to be with him until today.
I never expected to even love him again.
I never expected to have future talks with him.
And
i never expected he's th guy that i would cry for.

That's life, unexpected.

this post is not to advice, it is something to be shared.

Yes i do believe people change.
He has incredibly changed into someone i longed for.
I believe in all th wrong ones i've found, i learnt a very valuable lesson.

I hope you are my right one(:

2010-03-01T13:00:00.000-08:00

Be heading to th doctor to accompany him.

MacDonalds here i come......!

Have a GREAT monday people!

=)))

2010-02-28T19:30:00.000-08:00

well iam not gonna care anymore.
This time round it's all about me, first.

Bad migrane...
Weather's been so effing hot
I was perspiring like mad and even in th train i had to keep fanning myself
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it's this world just about materialistic people?
You know when you have th power, status, money, EVERYONE will look up to you.
Nobody bothers about you when you are poor or just an average person.
It's almost as if you are invisible to them.
That's where we have gone wrong.
It doesn't matter where we go, where we stand, how rich are we..
Everyone deserves a fair treatment.

I hate it so much when people look down on those who are poor or uneducated.
So what if you have those money or brains? Then all the more you should know about respecting.
Th world doesn't revolve only around those who are rich.
We are all a part of it, don't we have a share to be happy?

2010-02-27T23:20:00.000-08:00

Iam so forgetful that i forgotten to bring my camera along for two days in a row.
arrghh this is killing me.
How can i not capture great moments?
=((

I left my house to Clarke Quay for a jamming session with my band.

It's been some time that we jam.

2 hours past so we went to have our late late dinner.
Catching up session then i went off to meet
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baby at tpy since he wanted to go home with me.

We took a bus home and sat fo awhile to catch things up.
We havent been meeting that frequently as he has a tight schedule & knowing him, he gets tired easily.

Im glad we have so many things to talk and it feels like we just fallen in love yesterday
heh..
We'll build this up slowly and we'll get to th peak one day, if we just persevere(:

Okay i better be heading to bed now.
dead tired.

Will continue tomorrow =)

2010-02-26T22:30:00.000-08:00

God has given us th strongest female on earth despite how tired or worn out she is , at th end of th day she will still smile and love us fo who we are.

Our mother.

I'll pray everything will go smooth this coming week. I will always be by your side,mumma. You have gone through a lot just to raise abang and me.
This is my turn to repay your kindness.
I'll take good care of you after th operation(:

2010-02-26T00:06:00.000-08:00

At this point in life, i think that girls are getting much more braver than they used to.

You know we all come from different walks of life.
Some have better etiquette , some dont.
Some is really likable , some just ....... err cannot make it. heh

Th problem is not about how pretty you are or how trendy you potray your image.

It's basically how you respect th people around you.

There's this norm of making friends with attached people.

You know th other day i was just playing around in his fb well since he was using my account, ther was this chick added him up.
No i didnt get angry.
Matter of fact she wasn't ~~that~~ pretty. That killed my jealousy a bit.
Really she had this whole lot of make up on her, like 3x of how i wear make up
She had a sluttish pose in her display picture.
I admit i got a major turn off.

So i asked him who is she.
He said he doesn't now and gave me th permission to send her a message.
So i did , well after all he told me to do it.
I just sent a simple question"Do i know you or something?"
th next day she replied "Nope, i just want to make friends"

I mean is she just dumb?
His display picture has me and him in it together to begin with.
And clearly Masnashzreen isn't a girl's name .
NO it isn't right to make friends over at cyber with th opposite sex who is attached/engaged/married.
It just doesn't seem right.

IF she wants to make friends so much, come over to my profile and ADD ME!

I don't get it why she wants to make friends with him.

Dont tell me she goes around adding guys who are attached in th intention of making friends.
You are just causing problems to people's relationship

I was single too back then, i don't go around adding people who CLEARLY has a display picture together with a girl.
Well, i dont even add guys in th past.
Only those whom i know real close to me.

This isn't th first time anyways.

Yes, on th other side of it, i still don't get it why i have guys adding me up.
Funny thing is when i ignore them, i see them again th next day!

Yes, if you are here to remind me that Facebook is a platform to make friends, i agree.

But we have restricted ourselves to only those we know or perhaps through mutual friends that we might have seen.
No it's not about trust issues.
It's about privacy..
Why on earth would i let a stranger view my whole album?

Dammit, we have values to our pride, don't kill those values, girls.

2010-02-25T18:40:00.000-08:00

i want to have a room make over .
damn this is so gorgeous.

A life barbie bedroom.

2010-02-24T22:33:00.000-08:00

Beautiful, Astounding beauty, Gorgeous ladies.

God's creation.

Kim Kardashian

None other than Aiswarya rai

Preity Zinta

Last but not least, my all time favourite, Siti Nurhaliza.

I am straight to begin with.
As a human being, i admire beauty too(:

Now are you going to tell me minah2 with that kinda kening looks pretty?
Look again =)

2010-02-24T00:07:00.000-08:00

You know i always tell myself i love my macbook so much.

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I love it more if it is in this color.

I wanna get those casing now!!!!!!!!!!

Ebay-ing

Heh.

2010-02-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

How far would one go to attain fame & popularity?

Even to the extent of humiliating & degrading yourself?

I admit th most silly person who appeared on tv now is well known and is earning respect in a good way.

One of them is the well known Rowan Atkinson or better known as Mr Bean.

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yes just this look itself will tickle our heart.

but what if it comes in the form of humiliating yourself?

Something that when you appear on tv and outside of media world, you are still th same.
Mr Bean is what you see on tv but Rowan Atkinson is something you see in real life.
He is well educated and has earned a degree in engineering.

Comparing him to her....

click here

She will potray the same thing of what you see on tv and real life.

I thought after what happened she will be much wiser and perhaps brush up on her communication skills?
Then again i found out she is using it as tool a to attract audience.

Come click here to see a video by her

Why on earth did she go to such an extend?
Yes it is hilarious for most of us, but why is she willing to degrade herself any further?

We are all imperfect but we used those imperfections as a guide to remind us to keep improving not humiliating ourselves.

well time to wash my leopard preens and wear a piece of BIGINI with jeans to look BOOMS tomorrow.

It is that contagious!

2010-02-23T14:50:00.000-08:00

if i had a bedroom like this, i probably be stuck on my bed 24/7.

Time for a room makeover!

2010-02-22T23:18:00.000-08:00

Since i have time, let me do a bit of updating here.

In this globalization era, we are often engrossed in too much of physical things be it money, status, everything that is tangible

that we are oblivious to the intangible matters/things.

The most sensitive issue, emotions/feelings.

At times we get too selfish, ignorant that unknowingly our actions are hurting the one who loves us.
Whats worst we are hurting those people who truly loves us for WHO we are.
Funny thing about humans, we don't realize we are hurting someone til th day when we lose them.
And then th drama mama comes (sincere or not) we come begging at them, saying sorry, tears filling up our eyes.
Well if we are forgiven, that's good, but what if we are not?
Coming back to the "victim", they pretend to forgive us but they have become revengeful.

In this case, all these wouldn't have happened if we are so cautious with emotions, matters of heart etc.
then again, the saying goes, "to err is human"
but mistakes are motivating for me.

Don't get me wrong.
See it on the brighter side of life.
You make mistakes to learn to cherish, to learn to be better, to learn to compromise and all.
And the best of all, mistakes remind me of how imperfect i am.

So if someone commits a mistake to you, don't be so harsh, we all have committed mistakes at least once in our life.
We must learn to accept apologies, inhale forgiveness & exhale negative attitudes, revenge.

Happy forgiving!
And of course don't th repeat th bloody same mistake over and over again.

Mistakes happened to mould us to be someone brighter.

Cherish your love ones people.

Happy BELATED valentines day.

Yeah, i am very late, who cares? EVERDAY is valentine for everyday is a day to cherish your love ones.

& specially to you, baby, you have always been in tht special place in my heart, never doubt my feelings towards you when it has always been true.

2010-02-22T12:30:00.000-08:00

2010-02-22T01:40:00.000-08:00

2010-02-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

dear all th guys in the world,

yours sincerely,

all th girls.

2010-02-20T14:49:00.000-08:00

In this hectic pace of life, almost anyone would do anything for the sake of having THIS.

for th sake of THIS, people are willing to sacrifice their friendship, Relationship. Everything just to have THIS.

Number on a note, coin have a greater power than us.

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In the event of finding money, dont forget th ones who loves you.

true, money makes th world go round but love has th ability tht money doesn't possess.

Search your soul.

2010-02-19T23:40:00.000-08:00

a little blogging to be done before i hit to bed

went out for shopping with lovely girlfriends..

went ssdc to accompany ms rose for car enrolment.

played her iphone damn i pon nak =((

hilarious hangman.

When she's done off to our next destination.

was quite tough to make th decision on wher we wanted to go.
So we sehati sejiwa sepakat seikat sejerat sekerat sekarat go bugis.

1st stop, of course to makan!

We were peacefully eating then came these 2 alienas and aliens.
Alienas are females.(my language tht is) heh

1st look
:Kening macD

Tink tink* Minah la tuu

2nd look
:cleavageeee

Tink tink* Seexxxxxxxxyyyyyyyyyyyy.............................................................NOT!

3rd look
:Hot pants

Tink tink*

eh waitt.....

3rd and a half look
:Nampak pantat busuk ohhhhhhhhh

Tink tink* Dayak terlepas!!!!!!!!!!!

Readers, at this rate you might say i never see someone wearing hot pants before, but YOU ARE WRONG.

she wasn't wearing like those who i have seen

gini nye level, sape heran. hari2 aku nampak.
bila aku tengok cermin kt ruma.
heh

ps: i know this isnt a hot pants, i just want to show you the height of average hotpants.

she was wearing it this way

Reminder: DO NOT BLINK

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YES YOU GOT IT.
She was literally wearing it that way..

To make things worse, kalau bombom power tkde ape, kite tkde ckp punyeerrrr

kalau bombom hangus how???

I hilang selera okay =(

2nd stop;
Shopping!

First to buy thing.

ME laaa.. heh

with them telling me, my fickle mindedness decrease.... a BIT.
lol

So next mastura bought her lovely garang red beg. hahah
I think she learnt alot from aunties, you know she's good at bargaining..
haha

So then Hanisha fall in love with the hairband which looks good on her.
Bought!

We walked around alot, finding the alley which mas wanted to go.

Finalllyyyyy....
I would say we were being sooo singaporean.
When you see th item that you want, dont buy FIRST.

walk around, look for other shops that are selling it at a cheaper price.

must untung what.
hehe.

They both bought this lace dress which i also wanted.

But, no more stock, only left the sample.

booohooo.

So off to carik other tops.

patience pays off.
Bought two.

Then th tension comes when nature calls.

hahaha.

Skipped skipped, censored.

Went to intercontinental hotel.
Cam-whored.
The inside looks like th one gossip girls act.
really.
nice(:

After which proceeded back to mrt station.
Sorry tau mas, i thought you will end early.
really sorry.

to sum it all, i had a great day with th girls.
laughter and ehem, kutuk2. haha
Should do this more often.
=))

love bangat sama kamu berdua.

2010-02-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

i blog a lot today considering th fact that i am super bored.

oh ya, i realized ther's been alot of anonymous people adding on msn.

for example like abcdefg1234@hotmail.com

you know when you received such email request, DONT accept, they are not REAL and they are just virus. Bots to be precise.

They are all in th same form.
Alphanumeric..

Trust me, you wouldn't want your comp to be infested with this bots

i am not sure myself what kind of bots are they
but there are various of them
Viruses and worms
Downloader programs that suck bandwidth by downloading entire web sites

alot.
So, one way to prevent, is definitely not to accept those requests.

sidetrack..
baby's been busy with work and iam trying my best to understand him.
Well, he needs to find money to support himself.
yes i get it
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heh.
off to bed now. worn out.
been a real good daughter.
cleaning up mama's room and all.
=)

shopping tomorrow with th girls.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

xoxo.

2010-02-18T20:15:00.000-08:00

i wish i could rewind back to the past..

2010-02-18T02:50:00.000-08:00

well, i agree, if that guy is worth it.
heh.

Night loyal readers.

2010-02-17T13:57:00.000-08:00

2010-02-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

You know at times when you are out with your other half and you bumped into "makcik pakcik" that you know.
And they give you one look like you have just committed a grave mistake of your life with that look
"im telling your mother!"

when in fact you were just going to th coffee-shop together or even in th mall doing shopping
matter of fact your mum knows about you and your other half
and almost th whole world knows except them

They began to make a mountain out of a molehill
and there you get th negativity
when it was just a random outing

and you get this

"aku nampak anak *insert name* , kemain lagi ngn jantan/betina
jalan sane sini, peluk2(exaggerating, inserting fairy tale story)*"

And when this news reaches to another person, they keep on adding chilli sauce, tartar, tomato juice, just to satisfy their listeners.

When actually you were just going out for Dinner together..

My goodness, i admit i cannot take this nonsense.

For once, look into the mirror, isn't your daughter/son doing th same thing?

This is life, you get attached, you get ditched, you get engaged, you get married, you get whatever....

For once, iam like 22 this year, i know i look younger, but bear my age in mind..

I could even get married at my age if we were living in th past...

And please la, takkan makcik ngn pakcik tak pernah dating?

And here comes their reasoning
"Dulu lain, skg lain.... bla bla bla... "
going one whole circle without answering my question..

Da SENIOR2 pon tanak mengaku.

Menyampah i~

2010-02-16T01:15:00.000-08:00

Its late night and yes im on my bed but not to sleep yet
Somehow i'm used to sleeping late
I cant keep up with this bad habit

Not unless ....

I have a job.

Currently i have not received any acknowledgments from any company

I did received calls from unknown numbers but when i returned their call, nobody picked it up =(

This is driving me insane
i cannot be doing mundane things
no no no no
ill get tired of it

shall send out mass resume later on!!!

Oh God let me have this job please.

side track, on eve of CNY , baby & me went to a place that we know we're gonna get push around
despite tht he made th firm decision on going ther fo experience purpose
we arrived and immediately he said
"bising nyeeee"

well to chinatown..
more pictures are in his Camera
these pictures are from my cam and i didnt have time to snap since he's busy asking me to snap for him

There were pretty lots of attractive stuffs thats cheap
So we bought watch.

Not forgetting a lot of handsome Caucasians too!
hehehe
kidding okay youuuu =)

He was really excited taking th travellator with me
he claimed tht he always cherish th first time moments together
like travelling by Circle line with me
aww so cute of you =)

Oh i love you too.
Sometimes i may just think wrongly of you but that does not mean tht i dont love you anymore
How can i not love someone who sacrifice alot for me?
Yes, shit happened.
but to leave someone with a Big heart would be a Big loss for me.
you mean more than what you think

For your presence is what i have been waiting for(:

night readers.

Yaaaaaawwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnn*

2010-02-14T16:00:00.000-08:00

moment of laughter for us

"aku naq gy sane lurhhs
mane bole siot
cket pon tqda goyang lurh
saaaaaaaaaap
bbual mcm adeq2 sia
meh turun cni
see you yaw
sorry ehykk"

and naturally everything just transform into another word
kau to kaw
never mind to neyhmind

Transformation of cyber names but not in th IC
Eg..
Aminah into 'mimi jepon'
akispade
IraCine
usage of cute words
'elmo'
'bunny'
'kiyuuut'

Why in th hell would one lengthen the words?

Yes th world of technology is widening and definitely we can see more of juvenile posting their 'languages' on the web.
but sadly, majority of them made up from the Malay community.
Without realizing, they are a big joke to us.

well, i know this norm will not stop since children are exposed to the world of technology at a younger age

just 2 words from my heart for these people.

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WAKE UP!

=)

2010-02-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

And so finally i have finished all my exams.

Syukur alhamdulillah.

it was tiring thou for today as i had papers on 830am and 430pm.
so i chose to go home and study instead of staying in school.
weather was scorching hot
i could feel my feet burning..
yes my feet's skin is thin,it gets darker easily even thou im under th sun fo few mins

What's funny was i didnt know how long my music theory paper was
i thought it was th usual 1 hr.
so i sat and as i was doing i realise my attention spent was over & i got so restless as i looked up on my watch
542PM!
It's over an hour already why doesn't th test end?
And i just got to know it was 1 1/2 hrs.
My Goodness, who on earth doesn't know their duration paper?
ME -_-

So what's my next plan?

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Still planning la dey!
=)

was out with baby on thursday.
just to relieve stress and yes it's been awhile we went out
he relieved th old norm.

Neoprint..
haha!

oh yes and now th system has changed
you need to convert your dollar coins into yen since th machine only accept yen

alright.
it's getting late

and yes i ammm veryyy veryyy sleepy

Gotta rest my brain =)))

Nighty nite lovely readers

2010-02-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

just so not to disappoint my readers whenever they click to my blog
and see my not updated blog, well here's a little update so you wont feel bored
Heh. i know i care for people alot.
haha.(mp)

Well iam taking a break from studying now.
Tomorrow is linux server administration and virtualization test.
Hope i will be able to do it smoothly.

This is th last lap, make it worth, dear brain.

iam feeling uneasy now, damn i dont want to fall sick, not at this timing
taken panadol, and off to bed right after this.

3 more papers to go..

Pray for me dear readers =)

And yes finally i bought this eyedrop.
cant helped it with my always dry eyes wearing lens and having redeyes almost all th time!
this is one good brand yet damn reasonable price(:

i'll try to put it all away for you thou it's almost impossible to erase,it's possible to overshadow it with other good positive experiences. For once,i know what i want, trust me(:

2010-02-06T22:50:00.000-08:00

Exam week.

wish me luck people.

=)

2010-02-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

And so tomorrow will be the last day of my poly days.

At some point, i do feel sad for leaving this school.

Well, few more days to my ut3.
Business continuity technology on monday.

intensive revisions start now.

alright. shall find time to update after my tests are done?

note to baby.
idontwanttoseethosetearsagain.
and yes you mean alooooot to me.
Reeaally =)

xoxo.

Biar buta mata, jangan buta di hati

2010-02-02T23:50:00.000-08:00

Why oh why time seems to fly so fast?

Another 2 days of schling and i'm done for all the lessons for my 3 years in poly.
Happy? Sad? Well all of the emotions i could feel.
=(

I tried hard not to touch on topics like this.

But when will these people realise that love isnt something to be played around with?
it is not funny when today someone told you he/she loves you and tomorrow telling you that he/she no longer loves you.
Well feelings isnt something that can be changed overnight.

And i have real life situations that i know, da break aje, mintak barang2 balek.
Zaman ape nie sister?
Lu nk buruk siku, buruk prangai, buruk rupa skali?

Yes it happened to someone who is very close to me.
I was fuming mad when i got to know about that.
I ever broke up with my ex,(obviously) but i have never asked them back for the things that i bought them(unless of course my pictures)
stories like this just turns me off.

What kind of a normal human being would do tht?

So if you were married and you got a divorce, would you ask them to pay for the breads you bought, the effort spent on coffee you made, the times where you had to switch off electrical applicances for them and bla3... ?

Yes i completely agree on what's yours today doesn't necessarily belong to you tomorrow.

I am no expert in love myself.
iam still exploring, experiencing.

And please, when you break up with your bf/gf , please do not get your gazillions-no-brain frens to stand up for you, humiliating your ex, telling he/she is stupid, dumb, waste of time..
Well too bad, you were with him/her, so that makes you a perfect mirror image of what you describe about him/her =)

Why bother getting one lorry of friends to back you up when it was your fucking stink brain of yours that wants to be with him/her in th first place?

Seperti pepatah melayu yang menyatakan 'brani buat,brani tanggung'

Sama2 kita renungkan=)

Ps:none of this is quoted from any blog. any similarities is a sheer coincidence. &,i am just helping people to voice out.

2010-01-29T23:30:00.000-08:00

Apple has come up with another brilliant product
which i supposed will open up a lot of viewers eyes.

I was shocked to see what they produced this time

An Ipad Tablet presented by Steve Jobs

From my eyes , is an exact replica of Iphone, in larger version

A touchscreen device with a virtual keyboard, that only weighs 700 grams.
As what i understand, it comes in 2 versions.
One, with just WiFi connectivity and the other with WiFi and 3G.

Overall, i would say this is one good tablet for basic purposes.

Emails, Videos, Photos, Internet browsing and etc.

Psst, one disadvantage, there is no built in webcam.
Mayb they shld come up with it in future? hehs

Hmm wonder what they will come up with next time?

Side track, sch is left with one more week , after which one whole week of exams.
I hope i will able to make it =)

Baby and i have been busy with each other's work.
and yahh, thank you fo all your understanding throughout my stress days
and trying to find time to fetch me home/go home with me knowing time is an issue for us=)
For all your sacrifices, patience, really a big thank you.
And you know how much you mean to me.
We'll make this work.
Sorry for my stress-up attitude.
ily(:

oh, and to people who's trying to break us apart with your super nanny stories, powerful imagination of fairy tales, or even trying to make him bad in my eyes.
Stop trying, i've accepted him the way he is, & he has accepted me the way i am
I will be glad if you do not interfere in our Rship. Like how we never interfere in your Rship.

Cume Tuhan saje mampu mengubah takdir kami(:

Update Again when i have th time.

2010-01-28T23:00:00.000-08:00

Photographer: Nashzreen

I really have no idea on what should i update.

Basically life has been good.

Everything is a routine.
Iam gonna complete my tertiary education in 2 weeks time.
Hell yea time flies fast.

I gotta start revising soon. like realllll soon.
and get a job also=(

on a side note, i'd probably take a degree soon.
as advised by my family members and people around me.
i guess this is a better step than having only dip.
Beacon ST provides the course that i want, but i could also get it from MDIS.

Whats important is get a job first.
Sent out resumes to several companies.
Am hoping to get shortlisted.

Til then.

Update soon , lovely readers.

Dear Diaryy,

ℒℴvℯ yℴu , smallboy ♥

Q. What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?A. One thing that i shld probably throw away is my old hp. But i can't bring myself to do it, prolly it gives me too much of memories. hehs

Biar buta mata, jangan buta di hati

Q. What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?

A. One thing that i shld probably throw away is my old hp. But i can't bring myself to do it, prolly it gives me too much of memories. hehs